No-teacher

Recent events* have revealed two important things about the so-called satsang.
  • One, there is no way you know whether you can trust any teacher.
  • Two, there is no way to know whether you can trust to be a teacher.

In fact when seeking for the self, the first fundamental question is ontological: "do I exist?" The tricky part in answering this question is knowing what this "I"-packet contains when asking the question.

If you want to know if you exist and what this "I" really is, then you cannot become a student of anyone. For that would be assuming you know you are a student at all.

That would assume too that there can be a teacher. But who really can teach YOU anything about who YOU are? And who says there is any "other" out there to be a teacher? If you do not know what you are how can you know what the other is for sure?

These notes are for myself really--whatever this "myself" is, perhaps it includes "you" too. There is no teaching possible. There are no answers. All this, finally is about you. The continuous flow of perception and non-perception is pointing at yourself. And you only can know what you truly are.

Do not trust anything finite, any object to know what the subject (yourself) is. See how any thing is an object, including these questions, the mind, the voice in the head. See how all of these are inviting you to realise what you are. You are the source from which they come to existence.

But do not trust this to be true.

*The discovery of some "advaita teacher" who--as many others--expound paradoxical "pointers" to help "others" to find out they too are consciousness. And the conversion (one day after my discovery) of this "teacher" to Christianity and his injunction to "read the bible" to find the Truth. The trust somehow allowed the first time and the realisation of deceit the second, the absurdity of the situation. As if any book or word or religion could help more than any other thing in finding what the subject is. No matter what the object in front of the mirror is, nothing will reveal the true "appearance" of the mirror, for it has none.

The earth you dig with a shovel
stays on the earth.

The knowledge you dig with questions
stays as knowledge.

The question is whether or not
you are digging
you own (w)hole.