Is Benjamin in a dream,
asking someone in the dream,
the way out of the dream?

Mash-talk

Yesterday night i had a chat with Scott Kiloby.

From that i now am more confused, brain-mashed than before. Not that it's a bad thing. Things are simply more and more intangible, unreal and yet they are so bloody convincing!

What is time? Is there such thing? I can make out there is just this moment ever. When watching seconds pass by on the clock, the previous second is but a memory, there is no proof now it ever existed, the next second is an expectation only.
And yet: isn't there movement? It all seems to change all the time. Perhaps here is the key: is all seems to change. Can i ever make sure of anything?

There is just one thing known for sure: IS. Sadly, Benjamin's mind is not satisfied with that only...

What is it you are looking for?

What is it you think you are looking for? Enlightenment?
And what is it you understand by enlightenment?
Power? Knowledge? Love? Freedom?

If it is power: is there then anything that can have power on another thing? Are there things? Is there another? If power depends on enlightenment, thought, state, is it power?

If it is knowledge: is there then anything you can know? Is there any other thing than yourself to know? Can you know what is not a thing? If knowledge depend on thought that come and go, that can be learned and then forgotten, is it true knowledge?

If it is love: What is this love? Is there anything to love? Is love manifested? is love really love when it loves hate? If love is something inside you, then can it encompass the rest? If it is inside you, do you love those who want to take it away from you? If love means coercion of action is it love?

If it is freedom: is there any freedom when it depends on anything? Can enlightenment be the bridge to freedom then? If your true self has once been "forgotten" and "believed" to be limited, can it then be free of thought and belief? Is freedom not beyond that?


What is it you are looking for? Is it really what you should be looking for?
Is there anything to look for?

The only new knowledge
you feel you need
is knowledge to defend
the knowledge
you already think to have.

Freedom is not more knowledge,
it is rather the opposite.

But do you need to know that?