un-guru yourself
Don't tell about advaita. What is it to me?
Why bother?
If there is no-thing, if things arise from the mind only and tell me it's illusion, then when there is illusion only is this illusion not reality?
It's all there is! There is not a thing that can exist without being an illusion.
Everything is 'me'? And now?
'i don't exist'? So what!
'i am the witness'? So what, that too will fall away!
What's butt-kicking is not the particular. I care not about consciousness and about knowing i am not 'me'... The Real Stuff is Joy itself. The big big YES which has been trying to catch our attention till now by taking those many forms and shapes, calling: "i am! i am!"
Why bother?
If there is no-thing, if things arise from the mind only and tell me it's illusion, then when there is illusion only is this illusion not reality?
It's all there is! There is not a thing that can exist without being an illusion.
Everything is 'me'? And now?
'i don't exist'? So what!
'i am the witness'? So what, that too will fall away!
What's butt-kicking is not the particular. I care not about consciousness and about knowing i am not 'me'... The Real Stuff is Joy itself. The big big YES which has been trying to catch our attention till now by taking those many forms and shapes, calling: "i am! i am!"
Waking up
Sometimes i fall asleep and after i wake up it seems so overwhelmingly obvious that this familiar thing which i call 'Benjamin' is so insignificantly small. Lost in all those ideas about what Benjamin is and what it should do, the very thing it is pointing to is missed out, overlooked: Life is happening!
Life (or whatever this is and is called) is so amazingly huge and hopelessly beyond all understanding, and yet while amidst the misery of 'being a weak and mortal thing' it is the greatest of all reassurances. Simply because...
It is...
Life (or whatever this is and is called) is so amazingly huge and hopelessly beyond all understanding, and yet while amidst the misery of 'being a weak and mortal thing' it is the greatest of all reassurances. Simply because...
It is...
The mind that was not a mind
Mike: I heard something profound recently.
Benjamin: Tell me
M: It is the phrase, 'blood washing blood', meaning you can't wash away blood with more blood. Like, you can't undo mind by using your mind: because it is blood washing blood.
B: Is it entirely true? I guess it is true when you have come to the conclusion that your mind cannot help you with more thoughts, but how could you come to such conclusion without the mind? I guess the mind in the end is quite able at knowing its own limits, but cannot go beyond indeed (i.e. unable to grasp Reality)
M: I think it is when reality 'sees' that anything mind-born creates something mind-born. Something outside of that 'knows'
B: Well, isn't it just a matter of words? 'Reality-as-mind' sees. Mind is a word pointing at this manifestation of Reality from which arises another manifestation of Reality called 'thought''.
B: What is 'establishment'? What is established in what? Where is the idea of an establishment and an established and establisher arising?
And yet i know what you mean: there is a moment of clear-seeing that is carved into my memories, when a friend and i were chatting about Life and people's search to understand their meaning and purpose. As we talked i was refusing to answer his question based on the premise that there was such a thing as a 'person' existing. So sneaking around with more questions about his idea of person and of there being anything at all existing separately, caused him much frustration. (I feel sorry about this by the way but there was no way at the time to say things differently). But i loved this moment, because i was 'established' or so was the thought...
M: well, I see what you mean, but i feel it's like this: Nothing happens, no enlightenment is possible, and yet, something happens.
B: Indeed it's not even about 'enlightenment' because 'enlightenment' has premises. And where are those premises based on?
M: Yes, a fluctuation. Being dosen't change, but your understanding can.
B: Whatever it may be: in the end it is not in the understanding that the 'answer' is found but in what is causing this very 'understanding', the root-cause of all things.
M: Yes, well the root-cause is now telling me to do some yoga before bed! :)
B: Haha! :)
Benjamin: Tell me
M: It is the phrase, 'blood washing blood', meaning you can't wash away blood with more blood. Like, you can't undo mind by using your mind: because it is blood washing blood.
B: Is it entirely true? I guess it is true when you have come to the conclusion that your mind cannot help you with more thoughts, but how could you come to such conclusion without the mind? I guess the mind in the end is quite able at knowing its own limits, but cannot go beyond indeed (i.e. unable to grasp Reality)
M: I think it is when reality 'sees' that anything mind-born creates something mind-born. Something outside of that 'knows'
B: Well, isn't it just a matter of words? 'Reality-as-mind' sees. Mind is a word pointing at this manifestation of Reality from which arises another manifestation of Reality called 'thought''.
Ask me what the world is and i will say this: "It is just water within water"M: Fine if you are established firmly in the unshakable knowing of that. If not, it is just philosophy, and it will be hard to believe it.
B: What is 'establishment'? What is established in what? Where is the idea of an establishment and an established and establisher arising?
And yet i know what you mean: there is a moment of clear-seeing that is carved into my memories, when a friend and i were chatting about Life and people's search to understand their meaning and purpose. As we talked i was refusing to answer his question based on the premise that there was such a thing as a 'person' existing. So sneaking around with more questions about his idea of person and of there being anything at all existing separately, caused him much frustration. (I feel sorry about this by the way but there was no way at the time to say things differently). But i loved this moment, because i was 'established' or so was the thought...
M: well, I see what you mean, but i feel it's like this: Nothing happens, no enlightenment is possible, and yet, something happens.
B: Indeed it's not even about 'enlightenment' because 'enlightenment' has premises. And where are those premises based on?
M: Yes, a fluctuation. Being dosen't change, but your understanding can.
B: Whatever it may be: in the end it is not in the understanding that the 'answer' is found but in what is causing this very 'understanding', the root-cause of all things.
M: Yes, well the root-cause is now telling me to do some yoga before bed! :)
B: Haha! :)
No teachers
There are no teachers:
Look: if you believe yourself to be some sort of prisoner and if one truly wants your freedom, then that person won't tell you: "Oh i have the key of your jail. You can't see it but you need to guess how it looks like. And if you can get it yourself then you can open the door yourself."
Plain bull-shit!
If someone truly wants your freedom one will simply say: "My friend, you are free".
Look: if you believe yourself to be some sort of prisoner and if one truly wants your freedom, then that person won't tell you: "Oh i have the key of your jail. You can't see it but you need to guess how it looks like. And if you can get it yourself then you can open the door yourself."
Plain bull-shit!
If someone truly wants your freedom one will simply say: "My friend, you are free".
Need not needing
Oh you think you need something?
Maybe meditating?
A 'satsaṁga?
Get rid of thoughts?
Or maybe you want more knowledge?
What else?
Well let me tell you the good news: you don't need anything.
Look if emancipation is what you are truly looking for then why need it through means? Is this not paradoxical? You believe you need to emancipate, this implies something you are and something you emancipate from. You believe you need to break through this separateness, this implies again a you and a world.
But look into this belief and see: How come are you playing with these ideas? Where in the world is this idea taking birth? Where do you base your knowledge on?
Consciousness. Consciousness. Consciousness.
There where every thing is born, shall every thing die.
Maybe meditating?
A 'satsaṁga?
Get rid of thoughts?
Or maybe you want more knowledge?
What else?
Well let me tell you the good news: you don't need anything.
Look if emancipation is what you are truly looking for then why need it through means? Is this not paradoxical? You believe you need to emancipate, this implies something you are and something you emancipate from. You believe you need to break through this separateness, this implies again a you and a world.
But look into this belief and see: How come are you playing with these ideas? Where in the world is this idea taking birth? Where do you base your knowledge on?
Consciousness. Consciousness. Consciousness.
There where every thing is born, shall every thing die.
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